Hi everyone, it's been a while!
First of all, I had a break of practicing for a few months (which explain why I haven't been posting anything here), and I couldn't feel more great to be back on my path. I realised that I was looking elsewhere for something vain, and I was loosing myself, who I truly am, while trying to accomplish something that wouldn't really make me happier. But since I starting getting back into it, I really do feel better and I even started a new quest.
Finding my totem animal.
I don't know anything about shamanism and I think both are pretty much going with one another. But I really feel the urge to start on this path, and to start with finding my totem. I got a book that I barely started reading, a simple but very clear one (It's in French but I'll try to find it's English title). I hope it will get me to learn more about shamanism, cause it looks really interesting and very ressourceful.
I had my first meditation looking for a sign of my totem. My fiancé and I just started making a relaxing/meditating space in our bedroom and I had the chance to test it. I burned amber resin, but some music and started breathing. I first started in a sitting position, but I usually like to meditate laying on my back, and I felt the urge to do so after a while. I saw myself walking in the woods, barefoot in the snow but I wasn't really feeling the cold. It just felt really comfortable. I standed still for a while, and then began walking.
I have heard a few birds, but didn't come accross any animal yet. But when I got up, I feel so great! I think it's one of the best meditation I had so far. I felt energized and full of love, I felt my heart chakra open and balanced. And the rest of my day was simply great.
I can't wait to have another session. Hopefully I'll meet a spirit next time.
